Nerd

I honestly am one of the biggest nerds I know. I love to read, spend hours on wikihow, read philosophy, and actually enjoy studying French. And I'm an anal grammar freak thanks to my seventh grade English teacher. But the good (and sometimes bad) thing is that no one here seems to realize just how nerdy I am.

Of course it's good in the way that I won't be treated as an outsider or as one of the awkward types. People aren't quite as open here as they are in the USA. The biggest downside is that I sometimes, quite frequently in my opinion, get viewed as rather dumb. On the surface I appear to be normal, funny, pretty if I dare say so, but not all too intelligent. The underlying cause of that is that I find it difficult to answer questions in class. I normally do know the answer, I just go completely blank when put under that pressure. I never used to have a problem with it, but since we've moved here I've been finding it increasingly difficult. The only classes where I participate are the ones that aren't held in German, i.e. French and English. Ah and math, but numbers really are a language of their own.

Now we've gotten all of our exams done, so the remaing month of school is rather superfluous. But maybe, just maybe I can kick it in, suck it up, participate and raise my grades a bit. I've already held a presentation in Religion (to my upmost embarassment) to raise my grade. But in the remaining subjects, I really need to kick it up. The problem in Biology is, that I normally have no idea what's going on. Our teacher explains (or rather doesn't explain) the material in a way that I have trouble understanding it. Even though I know that I know what we're talking about.

It's really frustrating going from that student with straight A's to the one with mediocre grades who's intelligence is quite frequently underestimated. Well...next year will be different. I have all summer to work on that, and I swear, I will change.